DoCToR WHo?!?!?!

I just realized (oh... what a lie) that i haven't updated lately, have I? Hurm, well I guess I have to post something up to keep this blog alive and going well, it beats looking into an anatomy book and memorizing everything...

Doctor Who?!?!?!Yeah, I may not be original, but hey, it's the best i could think of at the time... I've been questioning myself why I'm becoming a doctor? What brought up the question all of a sudden? Good question... I guess it comes from numourous aspects probably... Not really feeling happy as usual, all the lectures, all the anatomy to memorize, the weather (mind you, it really is getting freezing!) and well... let's not dwell deeper shall we now...

It's quite fun remembering the good old days... How things were so easy... How things might not seem to feel a burden... How you have less responsibilities on you... God, I miss those days so dearly much...


Being exposed to the western world (and western ways) fairly early in life, I do quite see my life sometimes too... too ordinary? yeah, i'll go with that word... I remembered back when i was growing up in loughborough, uk; life was so easy going... life was a bliss! it was care-free... i had total control of myself, total confidence in who I am; who I want to be. On the left is a pic of s club 8... you could google it but hey, there's nothing much to see; anymore. Well, i was a big fan of entertainment back then... (i still am, in a lesser manner) I love watching everything to do with pop music. I loved dancing to them too, yes; dancing! Not only to the s club 8 (which came into existence just before i left for malaysia) but to many popbands which is literally driven to extinction (spell check!). But that was that... I even thought of singing (bad idea, can't sing!) or acting (yeah... i hate cameras!) but look at all those possibilities even though they might be worldly... But am I not right in saying that quite a lot of kids do dream to be famous and (filthy) rich? sigh... maybe it's only my imagination... well, moving on...


Doesn't fantasy seem so fun? Well, it's not really fantasy but gossip girl does give that air of life that seems so out of reach to us... but yeah, these kindda lives are very cool looking! How in schools they even have social standng, having queens and all... it's just as if it sprung out of a novel (which it somehow did) but how fun it would be to feel like that... (my mind's been washed by western ideologies! yay! =P) Aside from the high classes upper east-siders, watching how schools are in the west does makes you feel that your life might have gone a little duller than it could have been if you lived over at the other side... no? But let's just leave it at that shall we? The point is there's so much possibilities in life than the ones right in front of your eyes... Just need your eyes to be opened wider at very importnant stepping stones in life...


This pic is just for fun... but it's something importnant too... It's a manga i love reading; tsubasa reservoir chronicles... it's very interesting; CLAMP used quite a lot of crossovers from its other works into this and the XXXholics manga... Yeah... that's my life... somehow being at home (i mean the one in dublin) only results in me hogging up the laptop and constantly online... WASTING tyme mostly... But it's too cold to study! =) what an excuse... Owh... but this past saturday was really great! I got to chat and see quite a lot of my close friends, da b242 gang! How fun that was... we talked for quite some time really... Ikhwan, Nizam and I spent more than and hour, probably 2-3 but i don't really recall exactly how long... but it was fun... like the old days in kmb when we hanged out together and stuff. Than azri joined it to make things even more lively than it already is. and then rizal/izuan joined in! waa... how cool... if only nasa and chaq could have joined in too... then the whole crowd would be reunited throught the wonders of the internet! well... it's been quite a post already...


Euros! yeah... how i would love to have more! I want to shop like i used to in malaysia! but i also want to save up... I should summarize... What has all this post got to do with the title?!?!?! Well... it shows that i should have considered more options instead of only choosing between TeSL (is that how it is?) and medicine... BUT truthfully, even though there is a little feeling of regret, I don't totally regret my choice... well, my (lot of urges from the family except from my mama... love you...) choice...


My choices has made me the person I am today; even if i'm not satisfied with who i am at the moment, but those were mky choices. It has also given me all the experience with my friends, which are priceless! If people were given the choice to wound back time... It just doesn't really make much sense... hahaha... (this is also portrayed in tsubasa reservoir chronicles) It's quite selfish in a way... but hey... since it's imposible anyway, why waste time pondering on it? Whatever happens, nothing has been a coincedence... because there are no coincedence, only the inevitable...


In conclusion, I've been going through a series of depression for the past few days, and just needed to lash it out somehow... hahaha... but all the thigs above are relevant in my life, nothing was made up; intentionally... kay... siging off. peace out!


To all my friends; especially close ones, I love you guys! But I love my family more! =P MaMa, aBaH, aDiK and KaKaK, love you lots and lots and lots every single day of my life! muah! xoxoxo